I’ve explained why I’m so stressed and why I can’t fulfill a full time passion in this website, my life is extremely stressful and it hasn’t gotten better.

This week, my (now ex) girlfriend left me, simply put, we had a good relationship and she threw that away down the shitter.

I have never said this before, but as a child I had a lot of problems, despite my incredibly high grades in school I still struggled with my family life, my family tortured me with constant work and no rest, years ago now, my step father used to abuse my mother. He would grab her by her arms and put her against the wall and slowly try and break her wrists by twisting her arms. I promised my mother that I would defend her, and I never could, for the next 1 year I suffered from constant stress and health complications.

I know there are people who love me, but I don’t feel like they truly do, the earth is rigged and it’s not going anywhere for me, I left highschool years ago and since then, I’ve had suicidal thoughts, this has been the last straw.

I’ll see you guys on September 1st when Crackhead Pig comes out, nobody is going to read this but I hope this is a reminder of how easily people can snap.